mental notes i am sharing

I have been so occupied with other pressing issues and such I haven't had time to play with my cameras and I miss that. I have two Holgas that I purchased for $14 each, that was back pre-Holga fad and they could be found really cheap. I think they go for $35 now. Anyway, I played with them for a while and had fun but gave it up because I was spending all my money on film and developing. It was supposed to be temporary but they got stashed in a drawer and I found them the other day and got so happy! Time to start taking pictures again, can't believe I put my Holga out of mind when I took out of my bag.
I also played with an old Poloroid Land Camera. I was spending a lot on 667 and 669 film but LOVED the results. Now I see these wonderful sights and have nothing to photograph them with. As much as I loathe the whole digi cam revolution and the inching out of real cameras and film I still want one. While I still want the Canon A620 or something like that I am still looking for a good Brick-that's right, a mid 60's Argus. I would also like to find flash cubes for my 110. I love the grain those produce and would like indoor shots. I would also like to develope some 120 film I took a few months ago with my Brownie and DOH! I still have 3 disposable cameras to develop. I'm usually so camera and film happy but man, I have really slacked off these past months.
Now that I have taken my cameras out my quest for that perfect remote control SLR and non digi cam is up again. I'm a huge Cindy Sherman fan. I was introduced to her work in the 80s when I was in high school. I was trying to do that sort of thing myself as a kid and teen, costumes, characters and self portraits etc....and she did it so perfect and right on, made me want to make my own scenarios even more but I never found a good enough camera or long enough self timer and cable release.
I need to retire from the workforce. Seems like Austin is filled with people my age who retired from the workforce ages ago and are doing quite well doing nothing but pursuing their hobbies and interests during the day. What they do for money, dental and medical care is not my business but leaves me puzzled and envious. I'm not talking setting up a business and working for yourself, that IS work, I'm talking about the...darest I say...slackers (said it, shoot me) who I see when I take a vacation or sick day. Who are these thirtysomethings at HEB at 10am and out taking photos at 11am and eating at Dog Almighty at noon and stay playing ping pong until 2pm and keep referring to how they did yesterday and last week at ping pong right at that same ping pong table!!!! Green, I tell you, turning green! Students? Nah!!!!! Too old looking. No way, don't have those little worried faces and even students pack it up and take it indoors come end of the semester and I see the same faces out and about year round. Green I tell you...very, very green!!!! I'm taking more pictures.

Oh yeah and listening to Transformer.

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Cool Music Blog

If you can read Spanish or Portuguese:Mira El Pendulo
I've found their MP3 blog to be a pleasant pit stop along the cyber path during my boring, eight hour, work day. To think that if I sat eight hours on a jet I'd be in Europe, eight hours on a bus and I'd be in Mexico, eight hours on a train and I'd be pretty close to Chicago but sadly, eight hours in a cubicle takes you, darest I say, nowhere. You do get a steady check and benefits and it's not always so bad but....I'm taking a week long cruise in April so I'll see where eight hours on a ship will go.

Ahem, sorry about that.....

It has been brought to my attention that I haven't said a word about crafty,d.i.y., fashion,Sinatra (not true) or crochet, Kerouac (not true), music, nostalgia (c'mon that's all this is), thrift or vintage. I write what comes to my mind. It's all over the place:

Crafty Well I have just about sold out of most of my stock and have started re-stocking but those photos won't be uploaded until this weekend along with work by other artist. Busy weekend ahead. As for crafty, I have a few ideas but NO TIME! I wish I could quit my day job but the insurance is a pretty good perk, so is the pension plan. I have been quite busy with paperwork (car wreck 11/28)and insurance companies, settlements etc.....Then I am getting married in April, just around the corner. I'll be moving just before I get married, UGH! Collecting boxes at the moment and will start boxing soon which means some of my tools will be boxed up as well. I'll be taking a sabatical (short one) from my site I'll say from April-June. During that time, other artist will be posting their stuff.

On Fashion Lucky magazine this month listed a few ensembles I've been talking about and wishing would become more available: cigarette pants and cute 60's tops with flats. I have been wearing more striped tees (think four year old boy looking ones) to cover my chest from the sun. I don't want a camisole tan before my wedding since I'll be wearing a strapless dress. The sun doesn't seem to have moved far from the earth from my location. Yes I know it's winter, somewheres else it's winter, not down here Bub.
Oh yeah, I can show you my wedding dress:

It's an ivory on ivory, that is: ivory organza over ivory satin and trim. Simple and floaty for Spring. Just what I wanted. The veil is ivory with a 1/4 inch ivory ribbon all around and really makes the dress. Will wear with Liz Tayloresque, ivory, 2 inch slides.

Music It's been schizo: Bowie and Webb Pierce only. I play Life on Mars over and over and over, Starman too, okay everything he did, I can never tire of LOM or Starman. Webb Pierce and Bowie keep me euphoric for right now.

Thrift and Vintage Well, I did find a cute, 100% wool, grey , pleated skirt in excellent shape for $2. It is the perfect length and shade of grey. Also scored a vintage Pendelton robe in excellent shape for under $15! Man, it is perfect as can be and like wearing a snuggly throw or blanket everywhere I go. It isn't scrtachy and it's a cranberry and blue plaid and tres cool for mornings in a wood frame house.

So that's it. Last night I went on a long drive after 12am. Drove down Burnet 25 mph and sometimes it turned into Tropicana Rd and Paradise Rd in Vegas,
other times it was just like Ave F in Del Rio, other times it was the same old Austin and other times Route 66.

It gets weird when it's empty and just the neon is out. I turned on the radio and Roger Miller was singing about the little green apples. I happened to flip it on just as it started. That was a perfect moment and I won't find it again the right soundtrack with the right visuals and the right thoughts and that was just the trip I needed.

RSL

Robert Sean Leonard and I were supposed to get married back in the 80s. I discovered him after my crushes on Mitch Gaylord and various others from the 84 Olympics ( I know) and a short lived one on Philipe, the Prince of Spain, (but crushes on someone who appears in obscure Mexican mags maybe once a year no larger than a thumbnail just didn't cut it, although Seventeen Magazine did devote half a page to him and other available royal bachelors). After Dead Poet's Society, the cute, sensitive, prep school boy/character he played just really seemed sweet and I developed a major-uber crush on him. The last crush I ever had on any sort of celebrity too. Swear!


Now he is on house!


But anyway,as it turned out RSL came off the stage and started playing Dr. James Wilson on House and I'm marrying a real life cute, sensitive, ex-prep school boy :>

Interesting thing, Wm looked a lot like RSL when he was 16 and 17.

I keep hearing how RSL has huge self esteem issues. WHAT? Why? PUHLEEEZ

I can remember pretty far back

I have memories as far back as age two. It's cool cause I can remember the following:
I had a genuine fear of being eaten by a dinosaur a bear or bigfoot and thought if I stepped out of bed at night a skunk or raccoon would bite me...
I had no concept of when my birthday was or what it was until around age 4. It was making more sense by then. At that point I still couldn't remember the date...
For some reason I thought when my mom was a little girl dinosaurs roamed the world more frequently and I'd always ask her if she saw one or saw big giant birds. I think Land of the Lost was behind all this. I didn't quite grasp the time line at age 3 and 4 and grouped cowboys and Indians, dinosaurs, old black and white films and my mom as a little girl in one age-BT-Before Tera and thought they were all on earth at the same time.
I hated cow meat, unless it was tongue or liver (I know! Go figure) or sausage and would be the last one at the table. The food would get colder and harder to look at. My mother would become frustrated with me and finally leave the table. When my she wasn't looking I'd plop the pieces of gross cow into my grape juice, or place it on a napkin and go to the restroom to flush it down the toilet. Nothing was ever said so I figured I was getting away with it. To this day I'll eat anything on the planet except beef and tongue.
I didn't think anyone could see me when I'd decide I was invisible.
Everything had a personality and feelings, even the most banal of inanimate objects. Everything and anything would talk in their own way, even the most banal of inanimate objects.

Everything was so exciting. Going to Seeger's Bakery was always a treat and right across the street from the toy store. I could never decide which was better. Those cream puffs and donuts were to die for. The toy store closed down when I was still a kid but the bakery lasted awhile and yummmmmm I came to appreciate it so much. I never thought that the place was so special. I mean I thought I could get baked goods anywhere but not like those baked goods. No way. Seeger's Bakery rules and no bakery since has ever really impressed me. Not even Haby's in Castroville, though they come closest.

An INFJ's Minutiae

According to the Keirsey Temperment Test I scored for type INFJ. If you want a general overview of who and how I am, pros and cons just go here. Although this info varies slightly, it is pretty close as well. It makes a lot of sense and explains a lot to me.
I suggest this book:Please Understand Me II
if you just have to know what you, your friends, lovers and enemies are.
I tried to procure a copy at two different Half Price locations but was unsuccessful. I did run into two sisters who were also INFJs and looking for the same book. One of those things.

In other news:
It has been six months that I have my kitty,Mona Big Eyes.

She is still pretty small in size (compared to her brother who is full size and full grown). She is 10 months old already.
She is the best cat I have ever met. Highly sociable, agreeable, talks a lot, many vocalizations, highly alert and intelligent and just plain full of cuteness and personality. She is a social butterfly and can hold still without a hassle when I clip her claws and she is able to enjoy car rides. She loves live guitar and to be sung too and will just do all sorts of rolls and sumersaults to music. However in the car she doesn't like Dylan, not at all. His voice will send her into incessant screech meowing. Can't all be perfect. Tres cool to have her and glad she walked into my apt that night.

2006

Who would of though that Indianapolis Colts owner, Jim Irsay, would have been interested in the Kerouac scroll? I have been looking forward to the scroll tour to hit my town. Back in 2002 it was set to arrive at the HRC in 2005 but has been pushed back to 2008! Geeeeeez Grrrrrrr I thought 3 years was long. UGH!
Note to C.B. please go see it more than once 4me. I feel I could just loook at it forever and over and over.

I got a Rusty Warren record for Christmas. That's right-Knockers Up! LOVE her!

I've been on a crochet hiatus due to weather. It's January and in the 80s! UGH! BLEHK! I do not like summer entering the week after Christmas. It sort of zaps the enthusiasm to create scarves and hats from me. What I didn't count on was how is zaps the ideas for other projects as well. A nice, decent winter is only norma, seasons change. So are these the kind of California dreams Phillips-Phillips were having on such a winter day in NYC? I think it was NYC where she was at a bus stop in the cold wishing she was in California. Nope, nuh-uh, not for me. I want the winter's day. I need four seasons not summer 365 days out of the year. What's that? You would enjoy that?! You are nuts! It isn't natural, not to mention bad for business. If it weren't for my East Coast and Mid-West customers, Canadian friends and Portland fans I'd be out of business. Thanks guys!

For some reason I am thinking of Barry McGuire now-ewwwwwwww. I mean I totally loved Eve of Destruction as a kid and his voice painted a picture of someone quite ideal (I'm sharing something quite personal here :> btw so shut up). BUT I saw a few episodes of Hullabaloo! hosted by Barry and gag me. He was pretty full of himself, all teeth, uncool- like squaresville and L7 and all that and hard on the eyes.

Hickory Farms RULZ

Flyers are being circulated around town that say Come Home Patrick and then a photo and number. Poor Patrick, poor parents. Patrick is an Austin teen.