Grey, muggy days have always accompanied such news in the Spring (view entry:26.3.07 )

My friend, who I love so much, received news today that she is very ill. I've had a few friends have health issues recently. She knew she was ill but only to the extent of surgery and a long recovery. Instead the news today was more serious than we could of imagined and left us all stunned. We thought all that would be discussed was her surgery date. I want so much for her to come out of this, it will be complicated but it's completely possible per her doctor. That is what I want, for her to be completely well.

I wish I could fix people the way I can fix a turntable or other things I have fixed. I really am very good at that, things, just things. I am truly lousy with the sciences though so out went any possibility of becoming a doctor or a nurse (considered that once). I got the white elephant of the fix-it talents. Feels powerless to have a desire to heal and cure especially people you love. The desire to make people and animals well has always been there, it's one of those things I think everyone desires and would love to do but few have that ability.

When things like this happen my thoughts always jump back to happier times far, far from any thoughts of illness. It also makes me think of some saints like St Benedict who just retreated to a cave in Monte Cassino for three years, became a hermit to escape from reality because at the time reality was just too much for him. Later he emerged did good deeds, founded a monastery and became a saint.
Side note:
Hundreds of years later my Grandfather was severely wounded and left for dead near that monastery in Monte Cassino. It was a miracle that he survived after being left for three days on the side of a mountain with three wounds to the abdomen. Double miracle that he was able to walk (one bullet just a hair away from destroying his spine) and is still alive today. I digress, but that's good.

Finally the software has been installed at work and tomorrow should be a regular working day. I so need that right now. No time to look things up, no time to dwell on scarier scenarios than what we already know, just work, work, work,work.......
I want everyone to take care of themselves, health is wealth, it's all you really need, everything else fades and runs together when it comes down to it.